Your Value is not in your Productivity

WARNING: I am writing this purely out of emotion right now so I have no idea how this will go or if anyone will actually end up seeing it. I really just needed to get these thoughts out of my head and this is the best way I know how.

I love what I do.

I used to dream about being exactly where I am today. When I was in High School I used to write about my dream job in my journals. I'm literally living my dreams.

I'm a full time videographer. I created a videography business called WanderBloom Films where I make wedding videos, sorority recruitment videos, etc. I also work for a Digital Marketing company where I create videos for clients to use as advertisement and brand awareness. I absolutely love it, a little too much sometimes...

Today I had my first encounter with an unhappy client. I absolutely hate admitting that because the pride in me doesn't want anyone to know that anybody could possibly be unhappy with my work. I genuinely never thought this day would come but as I've been told by plenty of other videographers, photographers, and other creators, you are inevitably going to cross paths with an unhappy client at some point in your career, especially as your business grows and expands.

Let me just tell you, it stung. A little too much I might add...
The way the comments were worded, that feeling of being attacked, everything about the situation really. It hurt like heck.

I've talked to all of my creator friends, in fact I even googled it. Although this situation isn't necessarily a common occurrence, as a creator, it's bound to happen eventually (so i've been told.)

I just couldn't figure out why it hurt so bad. I felt like I wanted to dig a hole, climb into it, and hide there for forever. For a brief moment I was even questioning if I wanted to be a videographer anymore. Of course I do! I absolutely love what I do. So why was this affecting me so much?

That's when the realization dawned on me.

 I measure my worth on my productivity and what I create.

It hurt so much because I've never separated myself from my work. Because of that, when this person was insulting my work I took that straight to heart as an insult to me as a person.

I don't know if anybody else in the world needs to hear this, if anything I'm typing this as a message to myself.

Your worth is not found in your productivity .

Your value is not based on what you create.

What you make does not define who you are.

The same goes for work, school, hobbies, etc.

You are fearfully & wonderfully made and you were designed with a talent but do not believe the lie that that talent is all that you are good for.

If your job or your hobby or your grades were taken away from you how would you see yourself? If I'm honest I don't know what my answer would be to that because I tend to see myself as my job.

Let's learn to believe it today...

You are not what you create.

You are SO much more than that.

You are a child of the King, an heir to the throne, and absolutely nothing can take that away from you.

For the Girl Who Feels Alone in a Crowded Room

Just the other day I was at an event that the college ministry I attend was putting on. I was in a room full of people I knew, full of people I loved, full of people I live life alongside, but I somehow still felt alone. I look around and see everyone laughing together, having great conversations, and enjoying their time with each other. I bee-bop around visiting each little group of people. All the while feeling a little like the odd one out, not wanting to interrupt their conversation but so desperately wanting to contribute something, anything to feel like I belong too.

Can you relate to this?

How to Overcome Fear in College

I am an enneagram 6.

If you haven't taken the enneagram, (go do it, it will change your life) or if you have never heard of it before, than this may not mean much to you. Basically what this means for me is...

My life is controlled by fear and anxiety.

Correction, my life was controlled by fear and anxiety.

How To: Make Your College Dorm Room Cozy

    

      One of the biggest surprises I came across when moving into a dorm room at UCA my Freshman year, was how empty, bland, and uninviting the dorm rooms were. I had all these big expectations of how cute and homey my dorm room would be after scrolling for hours on Pinterest. Let me just tell you... those Pinterest girls had to work their booties off to make their rooms look like that!

This Is Why You Aren't Living Your Dream Life

I want to be a Christian lifestyle blogger.

He's Not Perfect, but Neither Are You

As most of you guys know, I've been living in Florida for the past 7 weeks (only 2 more weeks to go!) with a Summer project called Kaleo (greek for 'the call'), learning about how to grow in my faith and be a disciple maker. And as you guys also may know, I've got a super awesome boyfriend, Cory, who I was really sad to leave for these 9 weeks.

The last date I went on with Cory before we parted ways for the Summer, I realized something really important... That he isn't perfect... but neither am I.

So sit tight, because it's story time...

Welcome to Kaleo

Tonight I found myself sitting alone on the beach in a new place, surrounded by new people, about to start a new job. I may be surrounded by people but I couldn't help but feel a dark loneliness creep in no matter how many times I try to turn the light switch back on.

Love A Little Harder

Love.

How do you define love?

Google defines it as this- "an intense feeling of deep affection" or "to feel a deep romantic attachment to something"

When you think of love what do you think of?

The Do's and Don'ts of Dating

This isn't something that I was planning on writing about...

 When this idea popped into my head I immediately said no. I'm not qualified to write about this, I thought. "I don't know how relationships work. I'm in my first real relationship and I'm only a month in... Definitely not qualified to write about this..."

When You Have Everything but Still Feel Empty...

Friends, we've all been there...

My life is perfect... Or so it should be?

Bless This Mess

Hello Friends!

Grab a blanket, a cup of coffee, and cozy up, because it's story time!