Bless This Mess

Hello Friends!

Grab a blanket, a cup of coffee, and cozy up, because it's story time!




I always love it when bloggers tell real life stories, like the time they missed the bus, or when they had a stupid argument with their husband. It reminds me that even though I may feel like they hung the moon at times and even though I tend to label them as "goals," they mess up too. They aren't perfect. They're human, and so am I. I never want my readers to feel like they can't relate to me because I only share the good things that happen in my life because trust me, it's not always rainbows and butterflies.

So, here's how my evening is going...

For those of you who don't know me personally, I do videography. I'm a film student at the University of Central Arkansas at the moment and I do small film jobs like a few weddings and some family videos every so often. Well, a few weeks ago someone asked me if I would film a video for them in Conway tomorrow morning and due to some errors in communication on my part, I ended up being two hours away from where I need to be in order to film this video. Long story short, I screwed up. Now, if you know me at all I absolutely can not stand to let people down. I can not emphasize enough how much I hate upsetting people or even just confrontation in general honestly. So me being the person who has to make everything right all the time thought that the world was going to end because of my one stupid mistake. I called everyone I know who does film in Conway (keep in mind I'm a film student in Conway, so that's quite a few people) frantically describing to them my situation and begging for their help. It just so happens that no one is available to film anything with a less than 12 hours notice... surprise, surprise. Granted, after about 3 hours of frustrated pacing and angry tears everything ended up working out. I then proceeded to sit down and right this blog about how much of a mess my life has been lately when I realize my laptop is dead. Okay, whatever that's fine I'll just charge it, no big deal. NO, so you know how mac chargers are magnetic? Yeah, well genius over here somehow ends up getting a staple stuck in the charger slot of my mac so it's physically impossible to charge it. After about 30 minutes of doing surgery on my computer with some tweezers and a flashlight I finally get that stupid little staple out and all I can do at this point is laugh. Have you ever gotten to the point where everything just seems to be going so wrong that the only thing you can do to stop from having an emotional breakdown is laugh like a hysterical person. Well, that was me about 20 minutes ago.

Long story short... I'm a mess.

What I would usually say right now is something like you're "Too Blessed To Be Stressed," things always end up working out, God is always in control so why stress? Or "Happiness is a Choice," even though everything seems to be falling apart around you, you can always choose happiness. (These are two posts that I've actually written by the way.) But that's not what I want to talk about tonight...

Sometimes things happen. Sometimes you let people down. Sometimes you burn the bread. Sometimes you have mental breakdowns. Sometimes a staple gets stuck inside of your Mac. Things happen, and yes they always end up working out and your life really isn't actually over, but that doesn't change the way you see yourself when those things are happening.

Tonight, when all of this stuff was going down I kept thinking to myself "Hannah, why are you such an idiot?!" I'm such a mess. I'm so stupid. I know I'm overreacting. I'm being so ridiculous right now. I hate myself for acting like this. I'm a mess, but you know what?

Bless This Mess.
(and God Bless the man who has to handle this mess one day, but that's a post for another day)

Sometimes things happen that you can't help, but you can help the way you react to those things. You can also help the way you view yourself when those things happen.

Just because you forgot something doesn't make you an idiot. Just because you let someone down doesn't make you a terrible person. Just because your life is a mess, that doesn't mean that you are.

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." -Psalm 139:14

I know, it's the typical verse everyone gives you anytime you aren't feeling pretty enough or popular enough. But I just want you to think about this for a second. God created every single part of you. He not only created the way you look, but he created the way you feel. He created the way you think. He knew everything that would ever happen to you before it ever happened and he did it with a purpose. He didn't just say, "Hey, let's make all of this crazy stuff happen to Hannah today just because!"

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11

The next time one of these situations comes about, I challenge you to remember who you are. You are a daughter of the King. You are an heir to the throne. You are so beautiful and you are so strong and the truth is... Sometimes we forget things, sometimes we break things, sometimes we let people down, and sometimes we cry just because. I'm a mess & you're a mess & our lives are just messes sometimes. But you know what? You and me, we are such beautiful messes. Do you know why? Because we were crafted by the hands of God to be exactly the way that we are. 

So here's what I say...

Bless This Mess